Sick

So my dad being the classy person that he is...walks out on my mom on Thanksgiving. Words cannot describe the anger I felt when I heard that. I also just saw a rather frustrating post, from a so-called friend. The insensitivity of people makes me sick. I seriously feel like I'm going to be sick right now. I wish I couldn't feel a thing. It would be nice to be numb for awhile. I feel like I'm in some sort of nightmare, that I can't wake up from. I'm hurting so much and everyone wants me to just be happy...let it go...I don't think I'm ready...my emotions are so overwhelming and I don't think I want to control them. I think I some how get a sick thrill from feeding my "monster." I know this isn't right, but maybe this is where I'm going..maybe I want to be sick for awhile.

Sudafed induced thoughts

This is how my blog started on a rainy day...well it's another rainy day and I'm home sick on top of being sick I'm suffering from a huge case of cabin fever aka GET ME OUT OF HERE! I've learned a few things during this time:

1) As much as I love people, I don't understand them.
2) Sudafed makes you say "like" a lot.
3) Whitney Gail Wilson and Anna Elizabeth Whitfield Johnson are amazing...well even more amazing than I thought.
4) I suck at being confined in a box or house.
5) I need closure.
6) I hate it when people don't return phone calls, it's just RUDE!
7) I hate it when people say they care, but don't show it with actions.
8) I'm ready to get the heck out of Georgia more and more each day.
9) I'm trying to appreciate where I am, but it's getting harder to do.
10) I have no idea what I'm suppose to do with my life, I'm glad God knows.