Thursday, July 7, 2011

Birthday Blahs

This Sunday I will be 25 years old. (I’m still trying to wrap my head around that.) Each year just before my birthday, I go through a sort of dark streak. I get uber depressed and start thinking of all the things that I have yet to accomplish. This year (unfortunately) is no exception. :/ The fact that I’m having a horrible week also doesn’t help. My head is pounding, I feel like I’m carrying the weight of the world, and everything around me is swallowing me up. You get the picture.

I guess it is kind of sad to sit and dwell on all the things you have yet to do. My way of thinking on this is slowly changing though. I’ve realized that I’ve put myself in a box every year. I go in with this long list of expectations and the week of my birthday I’m a hot mess because I didn’t cross everything off. This will be the last year that I do that.

I have but one goal this year. I’m going to live my life. I’m going to for once let the chips fall where they may. I’m not going to push so hard with my “life” plan. When opportunity knocks, I’m going to answer, and I’m not going to worry about whether or not if fits the idea I had in my head. I know that God has great plans for me and I’m not going to let anyone tell me differently. I no longer dread my 25th year, I’m excited and I know it’s going to be fabulous! :)


  1. I like the way this sounds. Go with it.

  2. Aaah, memories. I am recalling my 25th birthday and thinking I was way over the hill!! I had a baby starting kindergarten that year and my sister reminded me I was going to be a quarter of a century!! Aaaghh!! When my 50th (!!) came and went I just laughed. In fact, I went roller skating and really laughed! Life is what we make it and age is just a number. God does have great plans for you and they are unfolding a little each day. Happy birthday!


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